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It's the first day of autumn

I’m so tired. I started the day off frantically. Because I overslept. yeah it happens, but how does one oversleep when they got a good 14 hours of sleep. I had to get another vaccine friday and I swear those things deplete all my energy. Also why are malaria pills $10 a pill. Do they want folks to not take them?!? I mean seriously $10 a pill and I need 20 and insurance isn’t covering them  

Less then a month away until my big mission trip. I feel like I’m ready to go but then I keep thinking there is so much more for me to do. I’m really excited though. I found out I’ll be working in two areas that I really love, with music and childres. So God is really allowing me to make some steps that I didn’t think I’d be able to do.

Have you ever been really into someone?!? You get the opportunity to date etc. Then you get in the weirsd this is about to be a relationship stage and you know off the break hey this person isn’t for you at all AND there is no way that your belief systems are going to align at all. Yeah so umm that happened to me and I got called mean for making the decision to roll out. I feel like at 27 it’s no need for me to get in a serious relationship with someone and waste time when I know and they probably know it’s only going to end with time wasted and horribly. I’ll admit some years ago I would have probably stayed justt o say I’m dating xyz or someone in this profession but it’s so not worth it. I’m trying to find someone that has the potential to be my husband (not trying to scare any dude saying I want a husband lol… just the potential that may lead to it).

I was looking at this bracelet I have on and thought about how hard of a time people are having in this economy. I got it from a jeweler that I like. It’s a small jewelry store not a part of a chain and I know when I have issues they will fix things with no problem and they have some nice pieces. A bracelet I had broke so I went to get it repaired. I went in and the woman practically begged me to buy something. When I say begged I mean she seriously was like please please get something. I’ll give you this $150 bracelet for $65 just please buy something. She was seriously on the verge of tears. I told her I seriously just needed a repair and wasn’t there to buy. She continued to beg the entire time she was repairing the bracelet. To the point where I bought something just so she’d stop. I’ve been going there for a while and it’s usually a painless process. I’ve never actually experienced something like that and she’s probably never done something like that but it was seriously desperation in her ask.

It’s been really interesting the past few days the type of men I attract with straight versus kinky/curly hair lol. Even the bagger at the grocery store treated me differently lol…. he carried my bag out to the car for me and then opened the door for me and closed me in. Albeit this is standard for that particular market (not the opening the door for me part) but all I bought was two boxes of tea and toothpaste so the help really wasn’t needed lol. Then some random slid me his card in church. But it’s funny because people that I met with naturaly hair said I look “regular” with straight hair lol.

I don’t know why this bothers me but I keep meeting men that aren’t into sports. Particularly football. It bothers me that on a Sunday I’m watching the game and am telling you I’ll call you back when it’s over lol. The worst was me watching the inductions into the NFL hall of fame and this guy not getting why I couldn’t talk. I’m like dude it’s Art Monk AND Darrell Greene can’t get any better, and he’s like whatever and had a ‘tude lol. I think because I’m a girly girl guys aren’t expecting me to like it as much and be able to trash talk about it.

Over the weekend I was out and about and I happened to see someone I used to date. It was more of a drive by type of thing so luckily he didn’t see me. Anyway I was like wow I’m not as superficial as I thought because he’s really not that attractive. I know I know… I’m mean lol.

I’m making roasted chicken tonight. What does that have to do with anything? Nothing. I just said it so I won’t back out of making it lol.

Time to do some work…

And I have 30 minutes to go at work. It’s my extended work week where I work 10 hour days and have Friday off. I’ve been in meetings on and off, done some writing, drinking my tea and chatting on and off with the man friend via email.

Tomorrow starts my second to last class before getting my certificate in strategic communications management (yaaay). I have to get back focused on school since the last class was in June. Papers and school work oh joy!

I’m really debating on whether or not I want to give my nephew some jeans I got him. he originally asked me for some R & R jeans which were close to $250 and the fit was slim. I hit him with the hayle no and ignored his request. So Sunday while out I went to the Rack and they had some true.religion jeans for a tad under $100. The man friend says I am crazy for getting them, the coworker said the same and other friends said I’m spoiling him. Ehhh. I’m repeating the cycle of what his mom did to me when I was a teen lol.

I made a bomb pizza last night. Caramelized onions, spinach, garlic and prosciutto on a homemade crust. Everyone tried to say it was uber fancy and would be nasty but there were no leftovers…NONE. Hmm how does that work?!?

I really want that new mascara by givenchy especially after eyelash gate 08. In case you don’t know I got my lashes done by a supposed “expert” that put on too much glue and too long lashes which resulted in me nearly blinding myself using harsh chemicals to remove the thick layer of black glue she used to adhere them, subsequently causing me to lose some lashes. Why doesn’t my Sephora have it in stock? The last time I used their website my order came and was returned and my card refunded without me ever seeing a box.

 Speaking of makeup and such The Nordstrom beauty people spoil me. Especially those ladies at the perfume counter. I had so many Bvlgari samples when I got my perfume I was seriously thinking about taking the perfume back lol. And those chicas at MAC spoil me sending me thank you cards and such.

I need to do some essential shopping for my mission trip. I want to get the flipvideo camera (I’m hoping someone will gift it to me lol) but I’m not sure if it’s totally worth the cost. I love the size but for a few bucks more I could get a full fledged digital video camera but it won’t fit in my backpack (which I also need to buy). I also want some accesories for the macbook but thats a big IF if i’m even taking it, because I’d basically have to have it with me at all times.  I also want a garmin but thats irelevant to the trip lol. 

Well I’ve killed enough time rambling. Time to be productive these last 10 min at work.