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I hope everyone entered the New Year fabulously. Whether at home, out with friends, at church, or even sleeping (because hey you woke up this morning so that’s fabulous).

I Started off the year the way I should have been doing before
Having fun
One of my good buddies and I decided we weren’t going to get caught in the trap of going to someone from church’s house last night to sit around and look at the same people we see every week (not that I don’t LOVE them) and ring in the new year
It’s a rare occasion we don’t have to sing and that we didn’t have service and we decided to just have fun.
We went to a party that was just really amazing because it was so socially diverse we met random people that were our friends at the end of the night and we just had fun dancing, laughing and slightly “partaking” lol

I realize I tend to give so much of my self to others that I never find those moments to really enjoy me and do what I do that I love.

I’m also learning that saying no isn’t always a bad thing. The only people I struggle with saying that to are my niece and nephews but they know their boundaries better then most adults I know .

I feel like I asked God to reveal things to me. He may not always show me in the manner I like but he’s showing me. I asked him to teach me how to be a better person in relationships and he put me in one with someone that sucked so I learned what I wanted and didn’t want real quick. I asked him to reveal who should and shouldn’t be in my life and some peoples light has gotten brighter and others dimmed. In just the past weeks I asked God to reveal what should I be doing in life and in a matter of a month I got elected to a board as leader of volunteer recruitment and someone from the inaugural campaign called to see if I wanted to manage a few hundred volunteers inauguration day.

The pieces are slowly starting to come together and I’m excited about that.

Someone told me to write down what I want to do in 09 so that I can make it happen!

I will:

• Be a better person overall
• Have a new job/career that is more fulfilling
• Move
• Take care of me better physically and mentally (stick to working out and vegetarianism)
• Stay on a Budget
• Shop less
• Save More
• Give more (philanthropically and volunteering)
• Be more open to relationships and get over my fear of commitment so that I can be in a serious relationship (wow that was hard to type lol)
• Learn the REAL difference between a need and a want
• Find a plan that works stick with it
• Take a creative class that is not related to music
• Be more organized
• Be more focused
• Continue to reevaluate friendships and determine who really needs to be a part of my life
• Stop being so passive
• Have 45 minutes of complete silence a week
• Go on at least one retreat that will better me as a person

These aren’t really resolutions but things that I can do to make me better. A lot of them can be done in 2009 some are going to take some work. But starting a year is such a great way to sit and reflect on what I could be doing better to make ME better.