Archive for September, 2008

Monday Evening Rambling

What is your idea of earthly happiness?

being amongst the people I love

What is your greatest fear?

losing a close loved one

Which living person do you most admire?

My mother

What is the trait you most deplore in yourself?

That I prejudge alot

What is your greatest extravagance?

Shopping for shoes and bags

On what occassion do you lie?

When it’s for the best or in weakness.

What do you dislike most about your appearance?

weight… gotta work that off

Which living person do you most despise?

someone not famous… so I won’t say her name cause she may stumble on here lmao

Which words or phrases do you most overuse?

whatever and booooo

If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?

I wouldn’t procrastinate

If you could change one thing about your family, what would it be?

that they’d be more health concious

What do you consider your greatest achievement?

surviving all that I’ve gone through

If you were to die and come back as a person or thing, what do you think it would be?

A tree… it provides shelter for creatures, gives shade in the summer, produces lovely color in the fall, brings nourishment in the spring… it does so much for so many things

Who are your favorite writers?

Fitzgerald, Walker, Ellington, Sanchez, Hurston, Dickins, Shakespeare

Who is your favorite hero/ine of fiction?

The Little Engine That Could

What is your most treasured possession?

life

What do you regard as the lowest depth of misery?

having no purpose

Where would you like to live?

Cape Town South Africa or somewhere with a spectacular view of water

What is your most marked characteristic?

Selflessness

What is the quality you most like in a woman?

Compassion

What is your greatest regret?

Not doing my PhD right after my masters

What or who is the greatest love of your life?

What: music. Who: I don’t know his name yet

How would you like to die?

When I’m old and happy… I’d like to fall asleep and just not wake up

Who are your favorite hero/ines in real life?

Dorothy Height… she is truly a super woman

Your favorite painter?

Bob Ross lol

Your favorite musician?

currently Stanley Clarke

The quality you most admire in a man?

Loyalty

Your favorite virtue?

Honesty

Your favorite occupation?

Writer

What do you most value in your friends?

Acountability

What to your mind would be the greatest of misfortunes?

To die before I fulfilled my purpose

What is your favorite color?

Red

What is your favorite flower?

Alstromeria

What is your favorite bird?

Robin :)

What are you favorite names?

Gabrielle and Elijah

What is it you most dislike?

people wasting my time

What historical figures do you most despise?

probably Hitler

What natural gift would you most like to possess?

high metabolism lol

What is your present state of mind?

Contemplative

What is your motto?

Stop expecting people and things to do for me what only God can do

don’t worry… be happy

I’m at that awkward age now where friends are starting to move on towards the next step in their lives, whether that be marriage, starting families, better jobs or buying homes. I’ve never really been the type to get jealous when someone that I am close to has a success because in my eyes their success is my success. I have a dynamic set of friends there is a cluster of us that have advanced degrees and are making moves career wives, there is a cluster that are great wives and moms, there is a cluster being fierce women buying homes and making moves. We are all great and I’m extremely proud that me and my girls can rule the world. So it was a bit disheartening when recently something major happened to a friend and some of the others genuinely couldn’t be happy for her because they were all wrapped up in their own issues. I’m not saying that if you are struggling to make ends meet and your friend comes in and says I got a raise now I’m making 150k that you do a backflip but seriously we should be happy when something good comes to one of us.

Not only should we be happy that someone has accomplished something big but for me I’m happy because I know one day that same blessing is going to come to me and that makes me excited too.

monday morning ramblings

Its the first day of fall

It's the first day of autumn

I’m so tired. I started the day off frantically. Because I overslept. yeah it happens, but how does one oversleep when they got a good 14 hours of sleep. I had to get another vaccine friday and I swear those things deplete all my energy. Also why are malaria pills $10 a pill. Do they want folks to not take them?!? I mean seriously $10 a pill and I need 20 and insurance isn’t covering them :(  

Less then a month away until my big mission trip. I feel like I’m ready to go but then I keep thinking there is so much more for me to do. I’m really excited though. I found out I’ll be working in two areas that I really love, with music and childres. So God is really allowing me to make some steps that I didn’t think I’d be able to do.

Have you ever been really into someone?!? You get the opportunity to date etc. Then you get in the weirsd this is about to be a relationship stage and you know off the break hey this person isn’t for you at all AND there is no way that your belief systems are going to align at all. Yeah so umm that happened to me and I got called mean for making the decision to roll out. I feel like at 27 it’s no need for me to get in a serious relationship with someone and waste time when I know and they probably know it’s only going to end with time wasted and horribly. I’ll admit some years ago I would have probably stayed justt o say I’m dating xyz or someone in this profession but it’s so not worth it. I’m trying to find someone that has the potential to be my husband (not trying to scare any dude saying I want a husband lol… just the potential that may lead to it).

I was looking at this bracelet I have on and thought about how hard of a time people are having in this economy. I got it from a jeweler that I like. It’s a small jewelry store not a part of a chain and I know when I have issues they will fix things with no problem and they have some nice pieces. A bracelet I had broke so I went to get it repaired. I went in and the woman practically begged me to buy something. When I say begged I mean she seriously was like please please get something. I’ll give you this $150 bracelet for $65 just please buy something. She was seriously on the verge of tears. I told her I seriously just needed a repair and wasn’t there to buy. She continued to beg the entire time she was repairing the bracelet. To the point where I bought something just so she’d stop. I’ve been going there for a while and it’s usually a painless process. I’ve never actually experienced something like that and she’s probably never done something like that but it was seriously desperation in her ask.

It’s been really interesting the past few days the type of men I attract with straight versus kinky/curly hair lol. Even the bagger at the grocery store treated me differently lol…. he carried my bag out to the car for me and then opened the door for me and closed me in. Albeit this is standard for that particular market (not the opening the door for me part) but all I bought was two boxes of tea and toothpaste so the help really wasn’t needed lol. Then some random slid me his card in church. But it’s funny because people that I met with naturaly hair said I look “regular” with straight hair lol.

I don’t know why this bothers me but I keep meeting men that aren’t into sports. Particularly football. It bothers me that on a Sunday I’m watching the game and am telling you I’ll call you back when it’s over lol. The worst was me watching the inductions into the NFL hall of fame and this guy not getting why I couldn’t talk. I’m like dude it’s Art Monk AND Darrell Greene can’t get any better, and he’s like whatever and had a ‘tude lol. I think because I’m a girly girl guys aren’t expecting me to like it as much and be able to trash talk about it.

Over the weekend I was out and about and I happened to see someone I used to date. It was more of a drive by type of thing so luckily he didn’t see me. Anyway I was like wow I’m not as superficial as I thought because he’s really not that attractive. I know I know… I’m mean lol.

I’m making roasted chicken tonight. What does that have to do with anything? Nothing. I just said it so I won’t back out of making it lol.

 

Time to do some work…

who mee

So I took this personality test and for once I found something that almost described me PERFECTLY… even down to the dating part lol… just sharing because this made me say wow lol
You are an EXPLORER/negotiator

You are a highly spontaneous person who always likes to try new things. Novel and unpredictable situations don’t bother you; instead you find them challenging and exciting.

You tend to be focused and resourceful and you are able to juggle a lot of projects at the same time; as a result you are sometimes a whirlwind of activity.

You have a firm grip on reality and enjoy living in the present tense. But you have a keen imagination that enables you to lift off from time and space to be remarkably creative.

You are humorous. You are able to laugh at yourself, and you like entertaining others.

You have a deep sense of compassion. You can show genuine insight into the needs of others; you are good at listening and talking; and you express a genuine desire to be helpful.

Yet you are easy-going. Your tolerance for others and their beliefs, your lack of prejudice, your ability to compromise and your occasional antics make you popular with others and a great companion.

Dating Tips (these are REALLY true about me)

  • You are curious and flexible; so you can get involved in a relationship too quickly, and then wonder how you got in so deep so fast. Step back and reflect before you leap.
  • You like excitement and novelty. But some routines can expand into wonderful traditions. Kindle some regularities in your partnership.
  • You hate to confront, so you tend to break up with silence or absence. Develop some forthrightness. Your disappointed partner will appreciate your honesty and you will feel more liberated.
  • Search for ways to inspire a partner who appears traditional. You may draw out a cautious person who loves your spirit and wants to go exploring with you.
  • You tend to be popular. So when you find someone you are genuinely interested in, avoid other dating opportunities and concentrate on this mate.
  • You prefer to take a relationship one day at a time. But when you find your partner in adventure, create imaginative ways to make a deeper commitment.

Lesson 53947223702

You have to really be careful what you ask God to reveal to you about people…. sometimes what you think is a shiny piece of silver really turns out to be tin foil

fast

today I’m fasting just a time to declutter and clear the mind and focus. How long am I fasting? I don’t know. Maybe just today. Maybe a couple of days. But there is so much going on all around me that I have to declutter starting from within.

life goes on.

I miss my sister. I’ve been really good the past few months. Kind of focused on other things and living life. But I was just sitting at my desk listening to a song and then I thought about her and got really sad. So I’m having a mini pity party as my mom calls them. I haven’t cried in months, especially about her. It’s when I think about little stuff that she’s missing out on and how proud she’d be of her kids and her husband. How I sometimes still dial her cell phone number on accident because it’s something I realllly need to tell her.

So I’m crying at my desk like a big baby lol. I needed that release though.

In a few minutes I’ll be fine and life will go on as usual.

if

someone sent it to me and I thought I’d post it

If you’re a minority and you’re selected for a job
over more qualified candidates you’re a “token hire.”
If you’re a conservative and you’re selected for a
job over more qualified candidates you’re a “game
changer.”

Black teen pregnancies? A “crisis” in black America.
White teen pregnancies? A “blessed event.”

If you grow up in Hawaii you’re “exotic.”
Grow up in Alaska eating moose burgers, you’re the quintessential “American story.”

Similarly, if you name your kid Barack you’re “unpatriotic. “
Name your kid Track, you’re “colorful.”

If you’re a Democrat and you make a VP pick without fully vetting the individual you’re “reckless.”
A Republican who doesn’t fully vet is a “maverick.”

If you spend 3 years as a community organizer growing your organization from a staff of 1 to 13 and your budget from $70,000 to $400,000, then become the first black President of the Harvard Law Review, create a voter registration drive that registers 150,000 new African American voters, spend 12 years as a Constitutional Law professor, then spend nearly 8 more years as a State Senator representing a district with
over 750,000 people, becoming chairman of the state
Senate’s Health and Human Services committee, then spend nearly 4 years in the United States Senate representing a
state of nearly 13 million people, sponsoring 131 bills and
serving on the Foreign Affairs, Environment and Public Works and Veteran’s Affairs committees, you are woefully inexperienced.

If you spend 4 years on the city council and 6 years as the
mayor of a town with fewer than 7,000 people, then spend 20 months as the governor of a state with 650,000 people, then you’ve got the most executive experience of anyone on
either ticket, are the Commander in Chief of the Alaska
military and are well qualified to lead the nation should
you be called upon to do so because your state is the
closest state to Russia.

If you are a Democratic male candidate who is popular with
millions of people you are an “arrogant celebrity”.
If you are a popular Republican female candidate you are
“energizing the base”.

If you are a younger male candidate who thinks for himself
and makes his own decisions you are “presumptuous” .
If you are an older male candidate who makes last minute
decisions you refuse to explain, you are a “shoot from
the hip” maverick.

If you are a candidate with a Harvard law degree you are
“an elitist-out of touch” with the real America.
if you are a legacy (dad and granddad were admirals)
graduate of Annapolis, with multiple disciplinary infractions
you are a hero.

If you manage a multi-million dollar nationwide campaign,
you are an “empty suit”.
If you are a part time mayor of a town of 7000 people, you
are an “experienced executive”.

If you go to a south side Chicago church, your beliefs are
“extremist”.
If you believe in creationism and don’t believe global
warming is man made, you are “strongly principled”.

If you kill an endangered species, you’re an excellent hunter.
If you have an abortion your not a Christian, you’re a
murderer (forget about if it happen while being date raped.)

If you teach abstinence only in sex education, you get teen
parents.
If you teach responsible age appropriate sex education,
including the proper use of birth control, you are eroding
the fiber of society.

And finally:

Quiz question for the RNC, specifically those on the Religious Right.

Who is one of the most revered, and famous community organizers in history?
Jesus Christ

a slice of life

What fragrance are you currently wearing?
Bvlgari Jasmine Noir

What are you wearing?
tan bcbg wrap dress, black beaded necklace, black bcbg pumps, diamond studs

What is your favorite flower?
Alstroemeria

What was the last book you read?
Simple Church

What was the last song you heard?
Best Friend by Ledisi

Where is your next vacation to?
Nairobi, Kenya

What is the last concert you attended?
SMV (Stanley Clark, Marcus Miller, Victor Wooten)

What is the spa treatment you could really go for right now?
full body scrub, vichy shower and aromatherapy massage

What is your favorite retreat?
Driving out of town to some bed and breakfast and disappearing from the world for a few days

What was your last purchase?
thank you cards at papyrus

What’s your favorite vacation food?
sticky toffee pudding I had in Cape Town. I need to find it even though it had to be like 800 calories lol

What are your top goals right now?
new job, a house, starting ph.D program

What is your next adventure?
I’d love to do trapezing and white water rafting before summers end

What is one of the most irrational things you’ve done?
Met this guy in South Africa who happened to be the PR director at the hotel we were staying in (that’s how we struck up a convo) and that same evening him and his friends took me to dinner and gave me a walking tour of Durban. I’d never met him before but he turned out to be one of the coolest people I’ve ever met.

What was for dinner last night?
I made flatbread pizza’s- one was caramelized onions, spinach and prociutto the other was chicken, basil and grana padano cheese and I had a nice glass of prosecco

What was the last thing you said?
I miss you too (talking to “him” on the phone)

What is your favorite quote?
“Inside every painful experience is a pearl”

What is the last picture in your cellphone camera?
my friend took a pic of me in the car during our mini road trip

the Q train

I was sitting on it today and I was thinking… sometimes I really do miss NY. It was a weird feeling to be back. I had just walked through Fort Greene Park with some friends from home and a friend in NY. We were going to catch the train to grab something to eat. It all seemed so right. The trip was somewhat last minute and I was at the will of others so I didn’t have the opportunity to meet up with friends like I would have liked to, but catching the train to the city and hanging out in Brooklyn just really made me miss NY A LOT.

Just the random foolishness of hanging in the city, the parks, the eclectic yet weird elements of the city, the access and availability of soo many things at any hour and just the magic that the city has. I was on the train and then walking through the park again thinking maybe I should give this a try and see how I like it. But then I thought about home and how I have so many things there that I love. It made me wonder am I stuck in a routine or am I generally just more happy where I am.

I think I’m taking another trip up in a few weeks. One to try and catch up with friends and to also just really see where my head is or if I was just having a nostalgic weekend…

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